20 random facts you didn't know about me...

to start off, i realise i blog in the morning most of the time, that's due to the traffic at night. it's crazy laggy, thus i normally am online only in the morning.

i did 8k this morning! yes, again, very proud of myself. it's been a tough week, and i needed the release. though i had a few kinks in my sides and shoulder by the time i finished.

Agnes called this morning! woohoo!! she stayed up till 1 just to talk to me after reading the last post, which was sweet, and thank God she didn't call at 2 in the morning, my time. don't worry i will be fine. yes i miss you ;)

thank God for great friends.

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i was running just now, and i thought of this post. random, i know, but running clears my head especially in the morning's cool and crisp air. too bad there was not much sun. here goes.

1. my last name in Chinese means hero, Xiong, but on my i.c it says Shern, no idea what that means. it changed some time ago when i was sick and not yet a Christian, a sifu asked that i change it, along with other requirements to heal my ailment. i remember drinking some burnt paper, YECK. at the same time, i changed my doctor, and i 'miraculously' recovered. =.='

2. i am a very simple person, if you make fish for dinner, i would eat it, if celery, i would too. no complains there.

3. i am an optimist. i believe in the good in people, it's not naivete.

4. i like fashioning things with my hands, like wood and stone, though i lack the proper instruction.

5. i love all things furry, but cats more than dogs, just a little.

6. i am alot like my dad. i don't express feelings in words.

7. i really, really like the english language, writing and reading it both, though the french and italian call it a bastard tongue.

8. i have a very vivid imagination.

9. i am of the 'grow old but never up' school.

10. i have alot of baby hair at my hairline (lol, random)

11. and i have 10 (yes 10) moles on my left arm. (yes i counted, yes you can as well)

12. i am definitely a second child, what this means, ask me another time. too long to elaborate.

13. i speak bm with a 'proper' malay accent, and oft have been asked 'eh you orang melayu eh? kenapa cakap bahasa bagus ah?' to which i reply 'bukan, cina, tapi dulu banyak kawan melayu'

14. i have stayed in 4 houses, this is the fourth

15. and i like staying in high rises, preferably a pent-house with two stories.

16. i realise my ambition is to get rich while travelling the world, means, to be paid for doing that.

17. i have a list of places to go before i die.

18. i laugh easily.

19. i like a musically inclined girl, preferably piano or violin (lol, picky much)

20. i love beauty, in her very essence, like, the beauty of the rain of an open field, like the sun setting and lights sparkling over the waves, like the quite serenity of a baby at sleep, like a smile that is enchanting as it is sweet, lovely to behold, lovely to receive.

i though i could not possibly have 20 random things to write about, but now i find i have more. maybe next time.

worse week ever..

for real.

so last week, something happened. and that something resulted in my losing something i really need, which now results in me being perpetually broke. i have, for the rest of the month, 68 ringgit to my name. while my erstwhile friend will suggest i do something with my bottom, i don't think i am that broke..i am really really embarassed by what happened. thus the ambiguity. and here i thought on my blog i can write about anything i want. :S

and then ytd, i received another piece of bad news.  the bad news resulted in my using my last 60, thus, 8 left. it's not so much as the loss of the money, hell, i'll make it back one day, but..again, the shame. sigh. and thus, morale is at an all time low. i did what i could to rectify the situation, and i believe i did my best. not that it'll go away. you may earn forgiveness, but the consequences one will still have to face. god why have i been so stupid? what was i thinking? evidently, i wasn't.

so now, here we go again.

i gave God a list. not like, demands or anythin. just that, when i pray, i tell Him that if this and this happens, then i will take it as a sign that this or that would be m path. thus far, He has not failed, and He won't, and thus my current path. i read over two years ago a book.

Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren.

it is a christian book, a 40 day devotional title. i remember one thing only after this two years, i am not quoting, but it goes something like this:

It is unimportant (this part sounds wrong, but that's how i remembered it) that God show you a path for your life. More important is that in your current path, you walk a Godly walk.

i can't dumb it down further, but i have to say, i did not. i did not in my a-levs, i did not in my relationship with Esther, i did not in my foundations, and i still do not in my life. it is human to be fallible, of course, but to succumb to temptation when so obviously it is sin, is beyond reckoning.

sometimes, i wonder, about the bridge of the song Hosanna by Hillsongs Aus.

heal my heart and make it clean

open up my eyes to the things unseen

show me how to love like You have loved me

break my heart for what breaks Yours

everything i am for your kingdom's cause

as i walk from earth into...eternity...

break mine for what breaks Yours...break mine for what breaks Yours...break mine...

-jing-

doom and gloom...

not my life, the weather. i know i often said i want it to rain, and i still do, but, i like it sunny in the morning and evening when i exercise. gives a nice tan, and i really think i run longer and faster under the sun. must be solar powered.

and i went for a run again this morning, 6k (veryproudthx), under the semi-sunshine, and felt very contented with the world, how life sometimes can't be better, or it could, but i was not sure how...then it occured to me.

have you ever watched The O.C? you know how Ryan likes to run whenever he's stressed? i am somewhat like that, but the only difference is, i don't run next to a beach! to wake up every morning to the sound of waves lapping the shore and the smell of the sea in your home, now that's the life.

i am moving to..lets see..Hawaii, yes i am, and i will send you a postcard. :)

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i love my kitty very much. and i normally enjoy playing with her with bits of string or my fingers. normally when she goes for the string, she'd never get it cos i would jerk it out (lolol, pun intended) of her reach. two days ago, she finally smarted up it, when i was using my fingers.

i was like OWWWW!!! though it was but a scratch, it was fairly deep. it's not like she never caught my fingers before, it's just when she did, she usually sheathed her claws. guess i did deserve it. i kicked her outta my room then. she stood outside meowing, and being the forgiving person that i am, i let her back in and continued playing tormenting her.

-jing-

Ashtar Command - Into Dust

great beginning to a new day...

so, i woke up today, and ran 6k.

it's a new achievement, and a heck of a way to start a day.

and i am now currently writing again. it gets better.

jing

one-oh-one

the first post! i actually experimented with wordpress.com, but after two days of trial run, discovered that to express myself, blogger seems to be the way to go.

why change you ask? well. i am not sure. when i first started carsmusiclifeheartaches i was heartbroken from a break up, and it was kinda immature, the blog, not the breakup.

thus, i have been thinking, well, it's time for change. and this is it then. i've got a few new things i want to try out, but it'll more or less be the same, music, random thoughts, books, life,

the only thing different now is, God. i will write about Him more.

i'll be seeing you.

-jing-