cold turkey...

turkey, like revenge, is best served cold.

jing

A Nightmare...

so the story goes, it was just the other night

i was awalking on, into a hall full of light

as i rounded a corner, i had the utmost fright

it's true, you were there, just the other night

i looked upon perfection, i looked up and i was thine

she bequeathed me a smile, my heart was then no longer mine 

she asked - oh voice of an angel! - 'hey, aren't you Lionel?'

to which i replied not at all, jaw hanging limply, final

she laughed - oh that joyful laughter! - and took me by the hand

we talked and laughed, oh for the desire of my heart!

she is all i saw, there was no other beauty upon the land

that voice, that laugh, that beautiful heart!

ere long we found ourselves a couch by hearth
she laid in my arms, no thoughts i begrudged her
a soft hand upon my cheek, my lips upon her hair
a scent all perfumers would murder for

i awoke then, sudden and aching

i awoke then, wondering

i awoke, your smile was all that was left

i awoke, and no, you were not there.

A Nightmare

K.I.S.S.

i was fiddling around trying to freshen up the look of the blog. due to oh-my-gwd-rip-my-eyeballs-out slow internet connection, i spent almost to days trolling the net looking for a nice template.

two days.

and then after two days, i discovered that none of them looked good or was too complicated etcetc..

thus K.I.S.S

Keep It Simple Stupid

and voila, my white page.actually, if i can, i would still change it, but to another simple template as well. we'll see

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i remember now what i wanted to talk about.

i remember in How I Met Your Mother that once there was a question which goes like this

"how long after a serious relationship can a person date again?"

not verbatim of course, but something along those lines.

the answers were

"half the time of the relationship"

i can't remember the rest, but one i do remember was this

"the time it takes for you to get from her bed to her door"

ha.

which brings me to my point.

i think the time from one relationship to another, or at least, to wanting another one, is, wait for it...

ha. when you finally can forgive (if there is a need, of course)
or more importantly, and this is the one, when all the hurt and all the pain and all the black goo in your heart has gone, leaving only traces of scars. and ashes. and wine.
really, until then, a person has no business going to find someone else.
and i think, finally, i have reached that stage. really.

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on another note, i talked to Wes today. really, i look up to him very very much. inasmuch as he says he doesn't have everything figured out, he is one of the most understanding and mature person i know. and he is caring, so yes,i raelly look up to him. we had a small talk, and there's so many things he said that struck me, and i don't know where to start, but mainly on God and  his trials and walk and it was quite inspiring. i think, hell, i HAVE to rethink my priorities. thanks alot man, i really appreciate it.

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two posts in as many days, i'm on a roll!
i have something in mind, it's called a po-....wait for it.....

jing

no song to describe what i am feeling now.....

and God is good...

just when i decided that yes, i will look for a job, any job it will not matter as long as i get part time work, He steps in and i get OFFERED a job with an event managing company. the timing was absolutely perfect..i am learning loads, the works of the industry, and the learning curve is crazy steep...the con is that i don't get to write often, and my mind wanders through the day, wondering about my characters, how they are faring (weird, in know, but they feel like family...) and about the storyline... so my thoughts are scattered all over the place- from KLCC to Terranuir - and while this is very bad, it actually ties in with my character very well......

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i realised i have not reviewed (i use this term loosely ^^) an album for awhile, so here's one.

A Fine Frenzy: Bomb In The Bird Cage

you may have heard some of their songs already, like Almost Lover, Near To You & (personal fav) Ashes and Wine. and i really like the title of the last song. i heard of them in OTH the er, first or second season, so they've been around for awhile.
this album is the shizzle. really. its definitely full of lovey dovey songs, and as usual, a mixture of mid-tempo songs to a few slow numbers. what is great about them is the originality of the lyrics. surprising thing is - or rather for me, the USP - , they use nature as metaphors (they also use alot of metaphors) often, and it sounds cool. the sounds in their music to me is a mixture of jazz and highland sounds (i can't remember what it's called, but its kind of irish and scottish...) really, it's a great album, and one of the few i can guarantee have good songs from start to finish :)

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i have been meaning to say something here on my blog for awhile.
but for the life of me i can't remember what it is..ever get that feeling? it is like a giant cork in my brain, stopping my outflow of thoughts...damn...
it's not a rant. i don't rant anymore, it's juvenile, no offense meant for those who do, but refer to former point.
it's not a world changing thought. God knows the world needs it from a fresh perspective though.
i really can't remember....
i will write again, hopefully soon

till then, know that i miss all of you overseas!

and as an afterthought, i finally understand fully now the saying that
'the heart has reasons that reason cannot fathom'

jing
All American Rejects - Another Heart Calls