Tuesday, 3 August 2010

FUTURE ME...

there is nothing quite like running.
i did 10k this morning, broke my own record.
as always thought alot during the runs, but along the way, the thoughts become a muddle
and every thought is focused on getting the next breath.
stinging sweat in your eyes, the sun blazing on your naked skin, wind whipping your hair about.
there's nothing to it, just you, your muscles and the open road.

~

i was thinking about this, i ripped it off a friend's  blog.

and i think it makes so much sense.

~
Dear Future Me,
I am writing this is case you loose your way again. Read the above. Good. Now read it again. Better. Don't loose that conviction. Don't say you don't want it, don't give yourself a thousand reasons not to, there are a thousand reasons not to. So what? "Go after her. Fuck, don't sit there and wait for her to call..." Remember all that we have accomplised this morning. Remember what you wrote before, that you want the picture for the person in it, not just any picture. Remember, the worse that can happen is a bruised ego and a small heartbreak. Please, please don't forget. And after all that, remember that the person in the picture, is more important than the picture itself.

Yours sincerely,
Past Me.

~
i don't know where it leads. i don't.
but most times, that is why you should take it.

~

Maybe i know, somewhere,
deep in my soul, that love never lasts
we've got to find other ways
to make it alone, or keep a straight face
i've always lived like this,
keeping it comfortable, distant
up until now i've sworn to myself that i'm content
with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk
well you, are, the only exception...

Monday, 2 August 2010

the breaking of bonds...


its so easy, the wrongs words uttered, the time people spend apart.
the apathy.

to form them again, or form new ones..
that's the hard part.

Sunday, 1 August 2010

to this and that...


i felt for sure last night
that once we said goodbye
no one else will know these lonely dreams
no one else will know that part of me

i'm still driving away
and i'm sorry everyday
i won't always love, these selfish things
i won't always live...not stopping...
 
it was my turn to decide
i knew this was our time
no one else will have me, like you do
no one else will have me, only you

you'll sit alone forever 
if you wait for the right time
what are you hoping for?
i'm here, i'm now i'm ready
holding on tight
don't give away the end
the one thing that stays mine

amazing still it seems
i'll be 23
i won't always love what, i'll never have
i won't always live in my regrets

you'll sit alone forever
if you wait for the right time
what are you hoping for?
i'm here, i'm now, i'm ready
holding on tight
don't give away the end
the one thing that stays mine

Jimmy Ear World ~ 23

have a good look...

at the end of the day,
is writing so you will be recognised more important?
where  thousands will applaud and then go back to their lives,
nothing changed, nothing gained.

or is it writing words that mean something to someone?
words that will break walls, that will heal and mend.
that will be the reason one returns alive.

so i ask you, mirror.
what is more important to you?

Saturday, 31 July 2010

close your eyes...





everytime i feel confused and..muddled..
i listen to this.

the in betweens...

so many of us live for the moments...
the moments when it all makes sense, the moments when nothing makes sense.
the moments which are like a climax to a story.
the moments which are the most memorable.

have you ever thought of living in between those moments?
to walk in between the line which connects and separates each moment.
to live when it is quietest and most peaceful
knowing that the moment is fleeting, and you will remember them in the in betweens.

so many of us forget that our lives are not defined by the moments
it is defined by the waiting and the hoping
it is defined by your walk on the tight rope, the in betweens
it is defined by that which you most often forget to remember

Friday, 30 July 2010

goodbye...

yeah..
i hope that one day i can tell you how much you inspired me.
i wanted to tell you so many things, and this is the only way i know how.
i'm sorry, for not saying anything, and saying them at the wrong time.
maybe we will talk about it one day.
 goodbye.

748.3...

(friend + sea + talk) x food = 748.3 = happy

to you it is a jumble of meaningless numbers.
to me, they are irreplaceble memories.

thanks.

Wednesday, 28 July 2010

the spaces between you and i...

He kissed her goodnight on her cheek - a quiet peck, ripe with meaning and looked at her while she slept, but she turned away to sleep.
He thought wistfully of how she used to stare into his eyes until sleep claimed him, her eyes were the last thing he saw, and the first every morning.

He kissed her goodnight on her forehead -  a light brush on her skin and then he turned away to sleep while she stared at his back.
She thought  of how he would have kissed her goodnight on her cheek, how he would stare into her eyes, and she would fall asleep with those frozen features till day came.

He gave a quiet sigh, and remembered her crooked smile.
She gave a crooked smile as she remembered how he would sigh at everything.

He slept on the right side of the bed.
She slept on the left side of the bed.

They were both asleep in the wrong bed

Monday, 26 July 2010

black, white and gray...

there is a difference between doing the correct thing, and doing the right thing.
chances are, 'correct' is a term used by society as normal.
while the right thing, often leaves you with a bitter taste in your mouth.