breathe...

i am not going to be doing engineering.

i know i am amazed too. what i do know about myself is that i am a very factual person. 1+1 = 2 and all that. i prayed about it, and God specifically told me no, do something else. i have looked at Mass Comm again, and i will look into Anthropology. an advice was, go to it, and FINISH IT. sounds cool huh. i am not too sure what it does, as well.. whoah, rambling. stop. breathe.

i have been writing alot these few days. i enjoy it. really i do. but do you ever wonder? for example, if i never get around to finishing Elementalist, i will always think i MAY be a good writer, instead of finishing it and no one would give it a second look and KNOW i am a bad one. breathe...

on that, i looked back into my old blog. and i have to say, i do my best poem, writings, when i am feeling down. and i am not one for false pride. they are really good, and i am thinking of writing all of it down into a book and binding it, the poems, not the writings..i know it may not always be funny, and there aren't many pics on it, but i loved my words. when i look back and i read, i think, who's this dude? did i ever write such a thing? and it gives me a boost. it does. rambling again...breathe...

i don't know what i am saying here...just a random thought that came to me..a little uneasy and a whole lot of disquiet....

-jing-