i'll see you later then...

i don't know why i always feel the need to write down the inner machinations of my brain...

'we put pen to paper in the face of devastating tragedy, we just try to make sense of it.

maybe we'll find clarity in some of the words. maybe we'll find peace.'

this is not a devastating tragedy, not even close with the floods in China and Pakistan and what not.

i have made my decision, and i have made my peace with the decision. i am saddened though, to think of the work that could have been done in The Hailer, the work of the Student Council. the people who have come to matter so much to me.

yea, i know, the what ifs and the might have beens can be a real thorn.

nevertheless, i will go to Segi. i will be Your light there. i will be more than my plans. i will be more than what i thought i had and was in Life.

i will be, with Your help, more. 

so where does that leave us?

i guess..in as many words as this...it doesn't, it doesn't leave us.
not us.